Mental emergency

I am a shadow of the person I once was. I no longer function. I barely make it through the day and making it through includes crying, a lot. I saw the psychiatrist today and we are taking me off of Risperdal. Risperdal has made me more insane than I started out. In fact since starting medication in December I've yet to have a good experience for more than a week and most drugs have made me crazier. Lexapro, Paxil, Seroquel, Lithium, Abilify, Klonopin, Xanax, Risperdal, Wellbutrin and some others I don't recall have all failed at balancing my brain. They have instead made me angry, made me cry, made me manic, made me feel like insects were under my skin, made me scream, made me rant and made me rave. Where does it end? I think I have to end this medication merry go round and just be alone in my brain for awhile. If things get tough again, maybe I can step back into the tidepool of meds and go searching again but right now I am far worse than I ever was prior to medication. I am doing this slowly and will my doctors approval. I'm stopping the Risperdal and giving Lexapro a chance by itself. If I still feel wrong then I'm off the Lexapro too. If I still feel wrong after that I'll have to deal with myself and hope that I can pick myself up and be a better person, if not for myself than for my kids and my husband.